Inner Engineering

Haha

2011-03-31T04:11:00.000-07:00

After like about two years of not blogging/msn-ing/fb-ing/anything got to do with internet. This is what I found out. 1. I forgot my email password. Not just that, forgot the password to other stuffs like what eh, even that I forgot. I couldn't log in to msn so I just created a new email. Using YAHOO and not hotmail. Anyhoos. 2. My typing speed decreased. From using both hands to type and both eyes on the screen has turned into both INDEX fingers typing and both EYEBALLS on the keyboard. AND I almost fogot what this thing I type on is called. 3. An idiot never stopped bugging me on my FB for the past two years. His last message sent to me on FB was on the 29th of MARCH. I haven't been logging in. What the hell do you want? Don't you just get it? Hahah. U've been trying to get my attention and replies when I don't even bother logging in. In the end, I got bored. So I deleted my FB account. Might be activating a new one though but that's another story. 4. I had to figure out what was my blogsite and then how to sign in. Yes, I had to FIGURE OUT. And I got in. Hehe. From there, I went on checking other friends' blogs. Which then I realized that they haven't been blogging since 2009. ME TOO!! Hahah. And I thought I was the only one. Only a number just moved on to another blog site. 5. I feel so pathetic. It used to be so automatic when I open up the internet browser. But just about a half an hour ago, I stared blank at the screen; for a few SECONDS only okay. Hehe. 6. I'm just posting this for the fun of 'reliving' the period where I was always on the move with this thing called internet explorer, mozilla firefox and such. 7. I'm in JB. At the computer centre near my home. Living the life I've always been patient for. But as usual, the happy, easy life always comes in a package. I just got to be on my two feets and still trying to walk again. The crawling part is, I would say, over. 8. It's still hard.

Roofiana??

2010-04-24T00:59:00.000-07:00

Hamis Syaza.

"Nanti kai slipper. Ada can twn ujan. Kai kasot nanti bau. Hehehe."

"Haha. Thx for the warning eh."

"Yela. Da bau nanti partners kt cp lari dok."

"Tk akan. Dorg masok icu tros."

"Hahahahahaha! cn imagine."

Siti Suzanna.

Winking+Winking. "Suz ok?"

Mariana Arshad.

"Lady Laga??"

Zaffan Zika.

"Kat RP, semakin BORING, semakin LAMER." ???????

I need you to hold me... I'm scared of lonely...

Lose to Gain

2010-03-18T07:29:00.000-07:00

Is that really true?

I have no idea what I've gained from losing it.

Patience pays off. Yes.

But I'm tired of all that. Patience.

Patience, Patience, Patience.

Yadeyadeyada...

BullShit.

Oh, rude of me. How long has it been?

Cudn't grab hold of the internet and also time haven't been on my side.

But I'm happy where I am right now.

Yes, No, Maybe, Sort of?

I'm not making any sense. Gah.

Is really that difficult to say ''Sorry, I was wrong".

It's just the beginning of a better ending.

Why does EGO come into place and ruin everything?

Get a LIFE! You're still gonna ask for forgiveness in the hereafter to get into Heaven.

So why can't you just apologize now? Regardless who's wrong or right.

At least you'd have done your part.

Blah Blah Blah Blah...

It's been a while..

Ups downs downs downs..

2009-11-28T20:47:00.001-08:00

Updates.

Iqbal is going to Dubai on 13th Jan 2010.

That's all I can say.

U should know what we're going through.
See u around.

SIGHS!

2009-08-20T03:49:00.000-07:00

So, what's up?

Hmmm.. Let me start with no matter what happens or happened, I'm still happy with this life.

Breaking news(REALLY HEARTBREAKING NEWS):

Mr Fiance is going to Dubai for TWO WHOLE YEARS for his new job as a restaurant manager.

He's going to Jakarta ard mid or end of next month for training.

He's taking this job because of the salary.

AND he's leaving me because of the salary.

Bloody SC.

You guys give him so much work to do (or rather a Manager's job) and pay him for a Supervisor only?

Now he's leaving. Serve you right.

Now he's leaving me, serve me right?

Cos I didn't and won't stop him?

I was crying so loud in my heart when he told me he got the job.

I shouldn't have accompanied him to the interview.

I shouldn't have given him the 'Good Luck' kiss on the cheeks and wished him. Gah!

Pull yourself together idiot! Things happen for good reasons.

Like, at least SOME people can't say that he's earning money the 'haram' way.

Like, at least SOME people can't say that he can't support me.

Like, at least SOME people can't say that I can find someone better than him.

Like, at least SOME people can just SHUT THE HELL UP!

For God's sake! He's supporting me and mum at least!

To make our lives better, he's going away, sacrificing the word 'US'.

I have to support him. I've got no choice.

He's doing the right thing.

Even mum cried. She was like, "Finally, my prayers have been answered. Every single day, I pray that you(Mr Fiance) canprove to people and shut them up. Finally."

And tears rolled down her cheeks.

But we know that there will be more stories that SOME people are just gonna spread.

And more stories that SOME people will just have to relate to religion.

So, whatever. May He have mercy on you for disrespecting good intentions.

Anyway.

Rufihazira, please don't cry when he leaves. ('I'll try')

I've never thought of a long-distant relationship. Hahah. And now I'm gonna go through it.

Why am I laughing? He's leaving!

No, it's good for our future. Chill. Smile. DON'T CRY IDIOT!

Hey Rufi, this is just another test from Allah. Come on.

You can go through it.

Think about it, when he comes back, the love both of you have for each other will grow stronger.

It's just two years.

And before you know it, he's back in your arms.

Can I play with time?

I'm gonna need the cliques very badly please.

Please?

He said

I will love you forever no matter what,

I will kiss your lips every chance,

I will make you laugh even when you can’t smile,

I will hold you when you cry,

I will stand by your side no matter what,

I will love you even when we age,

Nobody can take the love I have for you away,

She replies,

I will make sure this is forever,

I will return your kiss with a loving heart,

I will make you laugh when you are down,

The only tears you will have is tears of laughter,

I will stand with you through our troubles,

You will still be loved when you age,

My love will forever stay when you go away...

Hey Pakcik, I love you til the end. Always.

Sting

2009-07-05T05:30:00.000-07:00

Sent a random sms to Fiqa at 1am.
At that time, Mr Fiance bumped into Fiqa's sweetheart.
At Odeon Towers.
Telepathy. Hahah.

College IS a pain without these wonderful people.
NURUL, NS, NZ, MA, Datuk K.
Hopefully they know who they are. Hahah.

YOU know what, I'm sick and tired of YOU.
I forgive YOU, for now.

When I need you,
I just close my eyes and I'm with you.

My eyes filled with fear. My wrists starts to flood.
One last tear. My floor covered in blood.

Antagonism

2009-07-03T11:51:00.000-07:00

The base for all glitches.

Change.

HIT ME

2009-06-27T09:59:00.001-07:00

+LAUGHTERS+

Oh well, some people just don't get it..

What's the point of scanning stories when you don't judge?
Come on lah. That's how people go. You should know very well.
That SOMEONE is a NUMBER ONE for that. Hahah! But you people won't get it lah.

Anyhoos, oh, MUM said, THAT'S ALL YOU GUYS ARE GREAT AT.
Hmmm...

A penny for thought:

If you have a sister who has has brought you up since young, and then she gets admitted into a hospital for (in a case) ONE WEEK. Would you visit her?

OR would you hmmm... Go for a holiday, make excuses to visit, show ego for not visiting or even hmm let me say.. camping? and that with whom are not of the same blood?

Ultimately, EGO overcomes YOU.

YOU have always been right. Never been wrong.
YOU deserve respect.
YOU want people to go down on their knees for forgiveness.
YOU wish to see SOME people suffer.

Just a phrase to say to you.

You guessed it!

KISS MY ASS!!

I can't wait for THE DAY.

Shamed by OWN ACTIONS.

Oh, that's what blogs, journals, diaries are for.

LETTING OUT!

WOHHOOOOO!!!

Sweet

2009-06-17T20:01:00.000-07:00

I just helped mum hang up the curtains.
Then mum said, "Now it's called a house".
Ohhhhh... Now i know, u need CURTAINS to say u've got a house. Haha.

Anyways....

There's been so many people I encountered who've been really sweet. Either to me or another.

Fetched Mr Fiance with mum the other day. Got into a cab and off we went to Mustafa Centre.

At the traffic light:

A lady bertudung crossed the road with these other two guys.

They pratically stopped halfway and one of the guy went down on his knees and gave flowers to the lady. The other guy snapped pictures.

Me and Mr Fiance opened the windows and cheered for them. Many others joined.

Then those lovely people went back to the side of the road and joined their friends who were holding a bunch of balloons, RED ones.

So sweet. Green light, we went off and saw the 'Thanks-for-cheering' from them.

I'm still learning to be really patient with everything.

Being good to bad is easy and fast.

It's the turning back which is tough. Ugh!

I've been getting more truths about that SOMEONE.

Got to know from many that that SOMEONE is such a ___!!!!

First step: Forgiving and forgetting is so hard now.

Need more time.

Still; the people God lets us meet during 'those days'.

The taxi driver.

He told me and mum a story.

He was asked "Why you Muslims cannot eat pork?"

His answer: "You know, we always slaughter animals we eat.

Like, chicken, we slaughter. Cow, we slaughter. But pork cannot be slaughtered.

You know why?

Because pigs don't have necks. Thats why we can't eat them. Because we can't slaughter them.

Because they don't have necks. How to slaughter???"

Like -_- right!

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

But it's kinda true hain nah?

The taxi driver is just a joker.

I was practically laughing and smiling the minute I sat in his cab.

+just read FASIHAH ZAHIDAH BINTE JUPRI 's blog+

She said I'm sweet. Hahaha.

Go read, Go read.

Ok lah, literally she's pointing out that I'm sweet.

Later she'll say 'when did I say u're sweet??'

Talk crap Rufi!

Should I forgive?

Should I forget?

Should I change?

THE days

2009-06-17T01:42:00.000-07:00

Coming soon.

Everything's starting all over again.

The same old cycle. Again.

Anger =

A total messed-up me.

Kick me.

My mini lappy died on me.

Being repaired while I use this old fren of mine.

The old HP Presario V3000.

Everything's gonna be fine.

+Gets things off my mind+

Okay, I'm addicted to this song!

Indonesian song. Yes, again.

As you read this post, the song being played IS the song.

Cari Jodoh by Wali Band? Yes, that's the one!

Funny. Relieves stress. And Irritates mum and baby. I love it!

+sings+WO-OH-OH-OH-OH

ANOTHER ONE

2009-06-06T08:55:00.000-07:00

EXTRACTED FROM MUM:

"CONGRATULATIONS ON THAT NEW .......SHOP. JUST WONDERING, WHO IS THE VICTIM TO GIVE THEM THE JUMPSTART TO START A BUSINESS. FOREVER BORROWING FROM SOMEBODY, JUST TO SHOW PEOPLE THAT THEY ARE RICH. A REAL SHOW OFF... BE CAREFUL YOU OUT THERE; IF YOU'RE SELLING YOUR FLAT, OR YOU'RE GETTING YOUR CPF, OR ANY OTHER MEANS OF BIG CASH COMING IN, SOMEONE WILL BE THERE, LURKING IN BETWEEN YOUR CASH.

LIVING LIKE A PAUPER, ASKING FOR SUBSIDIES AND BURSARIES IN EVERYTHING BUT OWNS A BUSINESS. YOU CAN BE SUED. YOU ARE LUCKY WE ARE BIG HEARTED. MAY GOD HAVE MERCY ON THAT PARTICULAR FAMILY.

OPEN UP YOUR EYES. TIME IS RUNNING OUT. GO REPENT.
WHATEVER SUCCESS YOU HAD, IT'S BECAUSE OF SOMEBODY GOT STAMPEDE ON."

Anyhoos.. Mum BADLY wanted to view this blog. Then she wanted me to type the above on mine. So, yeah.

Malay idiom: Those who eats the chilli, gets the spiciness.

Oh well. +laughs+
I've told Mum to chill. After venting out here, she felt so much better.
I think I'm going to open up a blogger account for Mum.
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHH!!

STILL, COME MESS WITH ME.

I'm waiting for the right time to pounce!

I won a prize for Mum today.

Mother's Day brought forward to 6th June

By Royal Touch Spa Indulgence

This is the part the bro in maroon (Alias Kadir) pulled me up to stage.

And Mum didn't take a pic of me on stage!!

Had to this 'Sound Effect' for his actions.

3 girls up on stage.

They chose the best by audience applause.

And I won!

Haha. I felt my 'sound effects' sucked and I never thought just by that game,

I won this 'Double Boiler cooking appliance' and $100 Spa Voucher which eventually was given

to a 12 year old lady for her Mum by me. Hahah. Mum didn't want the vouchers and me neither.

The event was held Orchid Country Club's Suite. So, BUFFET was awesome!

The food, +mmuah!+, delicioso, excellente.

So, Mr Azhar and Ms Tina, when is the next event? And this time, I promise I'll help out.

Heheh.

Happy 22nd. Taken

Each anniversary finds us happier;

You are my light--my moon, my star, my sun.

You show me what real love is all about,

You fill my life with pleasure, joy and fun.

As time goes by, our love grows stronger still.

You're the most amazing MAN I ever knew.

I prize our anniversaries because

Each year I fall in love again with you.

No, mess with US.

FOOLISH JOKE

2009-06-05T05:43:00.000-07:00

I've been cursing and swearing so much today! AAARRRRGGHHH!!

Bloody idiot. Scoundrel! Asshole! SWINE!!!

May you rot in hell jerk.

Hehe. I was cathing up with hindi movies. And one was about this bloody idiot guy

who got famous and then he forget about those who were there for him when he was nothing

especially his lover! He even had an affair with the bitchy actress! Bloody asshole.

Okay, it's just a movie. LOL

ANYWAYS! Hhahaha.

Bumped into Cik Lan, Cik Midah and family the other day(Can't rmb which day).

Soooo many stories exchanged.

Funny ones. Crappy ones. Memorable ones.

And also they explained why they couldn't come for my engagement.

And want to know why?

There was SOMEONE who refused to give the address of my engagement venue.

Very nice right that SOMEONE? Rue it.

Look at how POWERFUL the AL-Mighty is. Been a long time I couldn't reach them and then, out of all the places in S'pore and out of all the days we wanted to go OG it was on that particular day.

That SOMEONE even dared to sms Cik Midah to say 'If they ask, don't say I tell you not to come for Ira's engagement'.

WAHHHHHHH.... How nice of you. I pray to God you won't be punished. May He have mercy on you.

After you ruin my MUM's name. After you spread STUPID stories to many people. After MUM has helped YOUR FAMILY in so many ways. After MUM buys EXPENSIVE things for you. After all that??????? EH!!! For once eh, ONE DAY, once the patience level reaches above the limit, I swear, I SWEAR I WILL SHAME YOU INFRONT OF MANY. I SWEAR!

You've been testing us for too long already. MUM has cried TOO MANY NIGHTS because of YOU. MUM took care of YOU like a MOTHER TLCs her child! I swear, I SWEAR!!!!! If you hate MY FIANCE so much, try ruining him! Don't bring MY MOTHER in. She didn't choose him. I DID! HOW COULD YOU SAY I CAN FIND SOMEONE BETTER??? HOW CAN YOU SAY THAT?? HE'S MY CHOICE. NOT YOURS. I KNOW WHAT I WANT. WAS YOURS ANY BETTER????? MUM AND MAK LONG EVEN TOLD ME THAT YOUR CHOICE WASN'T EVEN LIKED BY THEM. WHO ARE YOU TO SAY THAT?? SO WHAT IF I CAN FIND A BETTER ONE. SO WHAT?? IS THIS SOME KIND OF EXPERIMENT?? IS LOVE AN EXPERIMENT?? WHERE YOU CAN JUST LEAVE AND CHOOSE ANOTHER? WHEN YOU'RE HAPPY ENOUGH? WHEN YOU'RE THANKFUL ENOUGH?

HE WAS THERE FOR ME WHEN I WAS NOTHING AT ALL. HE CHOSE ME WHEN HE COULD HAVE CHOSEN A BETTER ONE! DO I HAVE A MODEL'S FIGURE? DO I HAVE AN ATTRACTIVE LOOK? I WAS A BLOODY PLAIN JANE WHEN HE TOOK ME IN. HE DIDN'T CARE ABOUT HOW I LOOKED! THERE WAS OTHER GIRLS WHO WERE AFTER HIM EVEN AFTER WE'RE TOGETHER. WHY DIDN'T HE LEAVE ME AND CHOOSE THEM?? THEY WERE SO MUCH BETTER THAN ME. BUT WHY??

Love is blind. I agree. But even a blind person would know how and what love is when they feel it.

Pictures taken with the family: http://rufie06.multiply.com/ (With the Mislans)

Come, mess with me.

Visit to Sentosa on a random night at random time.

With Mak Long, Pak Long, Cik Lynn, MUM, Baby and Me.

But only me and baby are in the pictures. The rest wasn't. Hahah. Heheh.

Anyway, we were celebrating Ryan's bdae. At Buangkok's Sakura.

Babies all over the place. It was so chaotic. But I loved it. Hahah.

Then, mum wanted to watch hindi movies. But couldn't really decide on it.

Mum mentioned 'Go Sentosa lah'.

And we went. Just like that.

Pictures taken: http://rufie06.multiply.com/ (Sentosa outing)

Pictures of the Aunties, Uncle and MUM are in MUM's hp.

Lazy to upload. Heheh.

To think of it, I shouldn't waste time on people like that SOMEONE.

Such a waste of time and energy and working brain cells.

Seriously, such a waste.

God is great, yaar('friend' for hindi :D).

Hahah. I'll leave it to Him.

The best of the best way to solve any problem.

That SOMEONE is such a joke lah.

SOMEONE is making a fool of (him/her)self!

Trying so hard to ruin us.

Hahah.

Well, we do need some entertainment.

Enjoyssss!

Anyway, we understand as well.

You got nothing else to do what.

That's all you know.

It's okay.

At least you have something to do right.

Your jaws are strong hai nah?('right?' for hindi :D :D)

Very strong.

Because all you do is talk, talk, talk.

Maybe you should do a talk show.

Really.

WOOOOOHHHOOOOOO!!!

YEAHHHH!!!

How relieved I am saying all this here.

Psstt.. There's more to come.

+winks+

Still, Come Mess With Me.

Across

2009-05-27T19:35:00.000-07:00

When all about you is black with gloom,And all you feel is pending doom.When your bones are racked with grim despair -When every breath is a gasp for air.Keep on going, though you need to grope,For around the bend is a ray of hope.

A ray of hope is perhaps all that's left,As your will to live has been bereft.You've lost it all, it's just no use!You can end it all, you need no excuse.But throw away that piece of rope,And give yourself a chance of hope.

Just give yourself another day,Brushing aside what your thoughts may say.This is your life and you can make a new start,By ignoring the brain - just follow the heart.Taking baby steps in order to cope,And minute by minute you'll build on your hope.

Build on your hope,. one day at a time,Though the road be steep and hard to climb.The hurts of the past - they should be dead.The fears of the future are all in your head.Just live in the present and refuse to mope Your life will sparkle for you're living in hope.

A gentle touch on my beats.

Absent from BLOG

2009-05-21T08:40:00.000-07:00

Ok, I'm gonna start off with, MUM is turning INDONESIAN!

Well, she is Javanese so, partly she is Indonesian.
BUT, like really, she knows EVERYTHING that is going on in Indonesia.
All because of the indon channels (SCTV, RCTI...)

Everytime I watch TV with her, she'll go,

"Ira, u know or not? The actress from..... Pregnant u knw!"
"They were married but divorced. But he still care for her....."
"They are scandals u know??"
"He is the one who is acting in that show!"
"Very sad u know their story"
"Everything is so real u know, their reality show"
"+sings+ Mengapa yang lain bisa... (CINTA FITRI theme song)"
"Do you know they used to be together?"
"The paparazzis very bad. They don't know the real story. The truth is......"
"Mama want to see CINTA FITRI!"
"MARVEL(tv programme) Mama starting soon!"
"Don't disturb lah!"
"This Changcuters(indon band)! U know some........"
"CEKOTTT!!(Scott) [only me, mama and iqbal understands]"

And more ok.

And guess what, I'm stuck with this two Indon songs. Do listen to them in the playlist.
HAHAHH! Thanks MAMA!

Anyways.....
Yeah, I know I've been away for a long time. heheh.
Been F-ing busy organizing Welcome Tea for the newbies.
Had to be officer-in-charge with Fatin as my asisstant.
Like hell we had to plan sooooo much!

Now, I can say, STRESS from Welcome Tea is officially OVER! YES!!

It was held yesterday, and can I say it was a success!
Things were rough at first but got back to the program flow soon after.
Almost all feedbacks said they had fun. THANK GOD!

I don't have the pics. Should be posted on HOTEL FUZE IG's very own blog!
Just launched yesterday during welcome tea. hahah.
http://www.fuze-ig.blogspot.com/ ~Still under construction though.. heheh.

Ok,

5th May 2009. 2am or 3am? somwhere in between.

Sabo-ed baby! It was his 24th Birthday! Yes, sooo old. hahah.
But u have no idea how childish he can be, like OMG.
Sometimes I feel like a mother.

Anyways... I kinda spoilt the sabo-ing because I totally forgot he can't smell raw egg.
And, yeah, I sort of crack an egg on his head? Heheh. But thankfully he was fine fast.

Try to notice some flour+baby powder on him.
Thank you Abg Iman, Kak Fath, Fasihah and Mama for helping in the sabo.

After bathing. Hahah.

Then, +thinking' I cnt rmb which date'+
OH! 3rd May lah.
Hahah. Ok, it's been such a long time I went out with Mr Fiance alone together.
It felt soooo god damn good. And, romantic. Hahah.
I did spoil some moments because I still don't know how to be romantic! LOL

Anyhoos...
We went to Bugis's Swensons. Had our dinner.
And went to Marina Bay. Bought brownies and mineral water along the way.
Chatted, laughed, brownies, chatted.
Then, he pulled my face to face his. And he kissed my forehead.
OMG!! I didn't tell him but I felt sooooo loved. So I just smiled.
I still wonder how SOME people who are planning to break this love we have.
Let me say a phrase I used to hear alot, TRY HARDER! Hahah. Right Makcik Bedah?

At the bridge.
I.L.Y.T.T.E

And now, MAMA's day!
Went out to watch Bohsia. U guys should watch it.
I still find it shocking to find out that there are such things in M'sia!
Bohsia=Abit of lower standards than prostitutes. So, try to get what I mean.
After that, thank you to baby, Aba actually tagged along with us for dinner.

ABA?? Out with MAMA and ME+BABY some more! What more could I ask for???
I thought Mum won't even talk to him but the feeling of seeing them laughing and joking around.
How much I miss that, no one can know. Yeah, I know I say things I don't mean when I'm angry.
But what the heck!

Anyways, we had dinner at Bombay Cafe. Heard about it on Tv.
Then when we reached there (AFTER BOOKING), we found out it's a VEGETARIAN restaurant.
People who knows me well, yes, HAHAH to me. To those who don't, I DON'T EAT VEGIES!
LOL! Lucky got mushroom appetizers and THOSAI! hahah!
The appetizers were splendid. Mushroom + cheese.

The sound of it made me doubtful of the 'delightful' taste the manager described it to be.
But after trying them, it was, DAMN NICE!
Then cake cutting! Bought from Swensons. Hahah.
Couldn't finish them so, we gave the staffs of Bombay Cafe.

Then off to Marina Barrage!
We had sooooo much fun!
Me and Aba were singing and singing.
Mr Fiance and myself danced!
Mama and Aba HOLD HANDS!
+SCREAMS!!+
Look at the pic below!

If u can see properly, some clouds forming a heart shape.
Moon being the center.
(Can see clearly during that day itself)

(Mr Fiance being in BETWEEN MAMA AND ABA!)
Such a barrier. Hahah. He was asking for songs from Aba. LOL

Pictures uploaded in multiply. http://rufie06.multiply.com/

The simple details in life

2009-05-08T21:26:00.001-07:00

The Baby Boy

Fatin with the little one

There had been so many hindrance, challenges, tolerance and so much suffering my dear Fatin had to go through.

Sometimes we make mistakes but after or even while going through the 'punishments' we miss out on the simplest, littlest happiness God squeezed in for us.

There it is. Have more patience. :)

To some of those who have been bringing trying to bring her down.

You didn't.

And money IS a big issue. Especially if it's a few THOUSANDS. If you think it's just a small thing, there is definitely something wrong. You may blame it on that particular SOMEONE who has been ruining a dear SOMEONE's name.

Shagged. All of us.

A pain in the ARSE

2009-04-27T19:30:00.000-07:00

Let me say this hear and get over with it.

The booth is F***ing UGLY!

Didn't turn out how we planned. WTF!!!

So pissed off with myself.

Bloody F***ing people who just don't see how we SWEAT our ass out!

Even had to hurt him.
Thank you, Terima Kasih, Rumba Nandri, Syukriya.

Sorry baby. If only, if only...

Love you much...

:) smile rufihazira ramlee

i'm drained

LOVE like you've never been HURT

2009-04-24T08:12:00.000-07:00

Title = Touched my heart. +Tears+

LOL

LA TOQUE BLANCHE +:D+

I'm STRESSSSSSSED!

Some people just don't know that they are the ONLY one hindrance
for me to GET THINGS DONE!

Relax. Cool down. +inhale, exhale+ Smile.

(Got a call)

NOW, at least one thing is done!

Suddenly I remembered; when the team was pasting our poster on the publicity walls,
WIND SYMPHONY's poster was there too.
Their background is the same as ours. Only ours nicer. HAHAHAHHA.

NURUL, did u make that poster?
Looks ABIT like your work. A PHOTOSHOP.
LOL!

Next, need to sleep early for tmr's F&B managers association at 10am!
It's not a school day! Why am I in this thing again?

Oh, benefits for your future network darling.

NVM. LOL.

Take my hand Let us walk the world together

Let everyone see It's you and me

Within you lies the sun, the breeze You are my inner peace

Needing you always by my side You are my whole life

Warmed by a fire within Your love sets me free

Loving you from the depths of my soul

My heart is now whole

Baby, if love me, smile...

2009-04-23T09:09:00.000-07:00

NURUL SYUHADAH made me realise I miss W26H 2008 Sem 2 a whole lot.

OMG, I miss all lah. Really doo..

I got no timee... RP new system is a whole new crap..

Didn't even eat for lunch = Didn't get to meet up with old friends

Chatted with Nurul and most of the sentence that came up was,
" I MISS U ALL", "I MISS U MORE" and "I MISS U WHOLE LOT"

+sobs+

The class was soo much better with the cliques.

I miss disturbing tat someone.

Oh, she used to prefer calling her SYU now her msn name is NURUL.

I think she starting to like it because of me.
HAHHAHAHHAHAHA

I miss you too..

Please do...

2009-04-22T09:20:00.000-07:00

From today onwards, Rufihazira Ramlee must remember to practice more to improve.

This means you.

Intro: C G C F G C G

C Em Am

Every now and then

C7 F

We find a special friend

Dm G

Who never lets us down

C Em Am

Who understands it all

C7 F

Reaches out each time we fall

Dm G

You're the best friend that I've found

C Bb

I know you can't stay

F C

A part of you will never ever go away

Your heart will stay

C C7 F

I'll make a wish for you

G C

And hope it will come true

Am C

That life would just be kind

C7 F

To such a gentle mind

C C7 F

If you lose your way

Dm G

Think back on yesterday

A7 Dm

Remember me this way

G C G C

Remember me this way

I don't need eyes to see

The love you bring to me

No matter where I go

And I know that you'll be there

Forever more a part of me

You're everywhere

I'll always care

+Chorus

Bb G7

And I'll be right behind your shoulder

watching you

I'll be standing by your side

with all you do
Gm

And I won't ever leave

C7 F

As long as you believe

You just believe

(Move the chords two frets higher)

+Out

Remember me this way...

Last week before school begins.

2009-04-17T02:35:00.000-07:00

Monday:

Went to school for SOH day.

Tuesday:

Went to Sec 4EB's class gathering. Which was worthwhile because of Tanned Wei Shan and Dickson Lee.

Wednesday:

Went to school for Freshmen Orientation Programme.
As one of the game master, I don't even have more chance to mingle with more Year 1s.
The GMs had to go to their stations like, way before the game starts.
So what did 3 Game Masters did while waiting?

Yes, CAM-WHORING

But apparently, I went to configure this mini laptop and the pictures are GONE!

Thursday:

2nd day as GM.
Again, CAM-WHORE!

Was released at 11am as the Principal Cup ended so game stations closed down.

Upon being released, went to configure this freaking laptop(i just found out the pics are gone when i wanted to upload them under 'Wednesday').

Saw Juu! Looking gorgeous. Missed u loads.
And I found out Juu knew a friend of mine who was with me there.
Where did they know the other?

TOILET. Because of some telepathy they had when opening doors. LOL

Then went home to freshen up and then go out with Mum!
SHOPPING lah. What else. Shopping for Monday's module.

Oh, I've got TWO modules where I need to where FORMAL.
One on Monday and the other... Err...? (checks again) THURSDAy.

Hahah.

And I'm gonna need to wear heels?? +Faints+
Need to remind myself to bring plasters for blisters, paddings and extra shoes/slippers in case of emergency and Scholl's refreshing feet spray. Should be enough I hope. lols

Friday:

This is what I'm doing for the time being. Maybe going out later.
Thought about going for the Jam&Hop. But LAAAZZZZYYYY.. :D Heh

Saturday:

I've got a huge feeling I need to do something on this day. But I CAN'T REMEMBER!

Sunday:

Going JB for an event. Going rounds. Meeting Mr Fiance's Mum and Ashiq KHAN.

Ultimately, I haven't had enough of the holidays though there's (a little) happiness in me somewhere that school is starting.

Somebody needs to treat me for lunch. Wakakakakka.

I'm still waiting...

Forgiveness

2009-04-07T05:31:00.000-07:00

To forgive is divine.

It is a trait we learn from our Creator.
He has shown us that it is possible to repent from our sins and that we can forgive others as well.
Forgiveness is more than just saying 'I forgive you'.
If we still harbour hatred in our heart, that is not true forgiveness.
In order to truly forgive, we must put ourselves in that other person's place.
We must try to understand why and how they could do such a thing to us.
When we understand what has led them to that act, 'I forgive you' and we may be able to truly forgive them.

It's not that easy to forgive when you've kept so much anger for that person.
I know because that is who I am too.
I used to be a very forgiving being but not now. Why?
Because I didn't hear the words ''I'm sorry''.
Some people don't deserve to be forgiven because they have too much ego in them.
It takes a long while to forgive.

Because, saying 'Sorry' doesn't make a person so low.
We all know that by being humble is not wrong.

And the one who forgives, has a really big heart.
For everything that happens, happens for a really good reason.
You'll just know, once you realise it.

Shall we forgive?

To someone so dear, learn to let go.

For mistakes made, that was what has been done.

No one can turn back time.

Lets be happy.

A soul is dark when he doesn't forgive

and then it becomes pure and light as white when he let go.

So he forgives to lighten and brighten up his soul.

Open up your heart because I know you own a big one.

SLA Fiesta

2009-04-03T07:21:00.000-07:00

So tired! Just got back from Supperclub. I didn't go there for the food LOL.

Went there because Mr Fiance needed me to help out with the deco.

Had to do some work for an event too.

Now I know why he's alwas so tired and

will sleep for around TEN to TWELVE HOURS! :P

Peeps in Rp should know what the title of this post means.

For those who don't: It's an event held in RP where all IG(or CCA) sets up their booths to recruit more members.

My team are in charge of the set up of booth and whatever craps la. We actually had to be in charge of everything for that event. Getting more members and attracting them and such.

We had a meeting at Bishan's Coffee Bean (or Starbucks I think), and the word 'SPONSORSHIP' came up. Hotel FUZE IG is really reall really new. So how to get SPONSORS???? Like, LOL kn! We're not even known but then Wat The Heck. And they gave us a budget of only $____!! -_-

And now... WE'VE GOT SPONSORS!! Hahaha! I just got one from my part too!

For those who wish to join Hotel Fuze IG, you'll get LOADS of stuffs from us. or rather, WORTH-IT stuffs(to me though). Hehehe.

But firstly, let me speak bits about us.

We are a hospitality-enhancement IG that aims to…
• immerse our members’ knowledge in the hospitality industry by learning outside the classroom
• engage our members in the hospitality industry, physically and mentally
• expose our members to the hospitality industry’s requirement prior to our IIP (Industry Immersion Program)

Oh, we're not HOTEL 81 or those most at Geylang and all that level ar. We're more enhanced! Hahah!

For more infos, please come down to Hotel FUZE IG's booth. I'm not sure where yet. HEHE..
Will update.

:D

OH OH OH! I just bought a new PortFolio and an organiser book.
Was going through my certificates and found some funny2 ones but mum said just put inside the folio just in case. lol.

And baby might get angry if he sees me with the new book everywhere I go.
Previously he told me not to get one because he doesn't want to see his fiance getting too serious and too organized. Sorry but I really have to get one But please lah, ME GETING TOO ORGANIZED?? Serious when necessary lah but ORGANIZED?? I can't even get close to being tidy or neat. Haha. I think you should know me well enough lah b. You know how my table and the INSIDE of my bags looks like right? Hahaha. :D

"Love you all the time"
Reply: "Love you errrrr... all the time also lah!"

Mum randomly said to me, "Ira, you are an unexpected blessing"

+Teary+

And I know there are something wrong with the Nifty Blogs column.

Will get it done nicely when I'm VELI VELI FWEE.

Gonna get really busy...

What I had been up to

2009-03-26T21:49:00.000-07:00

Yes, I know I didn't update for quite a long time. A few weeks only what.. Hehhe..

What can I say? So many things happened. Been soooo busy.

1) I got engaged! I guess it didn't go that bad after all. It was soooo much better than I expected! Thank you so much for those lovely friends and family who came. Words can't describe how much I appreciate everything. If I can, I would have hugged each and every one of you! Hahahas! Oh God, even though it's been more than a month(now I just realised how long I didn't blogged) or rather almost coming to TWO months, I can still remember how it felt. Indesrcibable(correct spelling or not ar? LOL). Since then, it felt soooo good being someone's fiance. Even though it's the same thing even before but gosh, I really don't know HOW TO LET THIS FEELING OUT! I mean, you'll know once it's your turns. :D SO MANY PICS TO BE UPLOADED. But then again, when I MIA-ed, definitely there are other friends who have been uploading them.

Oh, just for SOMEONE'S INFO, it was my MUM(YOUR SISTER) who texted YOU.

Just to let you know, MUM is VERY UPSET WITH YOU. Oh, and THANKS for telling people that my MUM did not help YOUR HUSBAND'S Bis. FYI, YOU know how much MUM contribute EVERY MONTH to the (place). If I am damn rude and I don't care about MUM, I would have EMBARASSED YOU LIKE HELL when you came down on my engagement. Oh, I know you didn't want to come. I've heard from many mouths telling me whatever YOU told them. And anyway, my engagement ROCKED. HAH! Many turned up before and after you. Like, WHATEVER! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!

Anyhoos, just to underline something, YOU STILL DIDN'T GET ON TO MY LEVEL! :D :D :D

2) Went to Sabah.

The main reason was that Datin's son sooo wanted Iqbal to come there and Mum wanted to meet Datin and as for me, all for one, one for all lah! Haha! Yes, I tagged along. DUH! See? No one shall separate us. Three musketeers! Hahaha!
Anyways, it was fun till it lasted.

First day was a gone case because the hotel we booked in was really2 bad. Let me announce, DO NOT GO TO TABUNG HAJI HOTEL IF YOU GO TO SABAH FOR ANY REASON. The room is very smelly and obviously dirty and we found out that the whole in charge of the hotel is NOT A NICE MAN. He doesn't pay some of his workers for months and even years!

2nd day was at Lembah Impian Country Home Resort. It was HEAVEN! We had the WHOLE RESORT TO OURSELVES! OMG! I sooooo want to live there forever!!
We spent the 2nd day in the resort. Swimming at night! Only US! No one else! Hahah! And we even had those attendants waiting to attend to any of our needs and wants. Whatever and wherever we want things made, DONE! They'll get exactly what we want and put them where we want them to be. Luxury life.
I forgot to mention that we spent the afternoon in the Country-Style Executive Suite master bedroom because my baby had high fever but amazingly recovered in just a few hours. LOL. We went to the doctor nearby and the receptionist actually had sent a driver to send wherever we wanted but Datin's Sister told them that they didn't have to because she's around for us.
I can obviously say that life was of a rich man's!

Breakfast was sent to us. American style.

Dinner? Hehehehe.. Datin badly wanted Iqbal to cook so we went to Datin's 3-storey bungalow to cook. Did our shopping at some market that is like 'Giant' over there. Lol. He cooked sweet and sour fish! A really BIG FISH! I don't know what the fish is called. Hehe. And his specialty, prawn and potato dish. I don't know what it's called! But it's my fav! Hahah. But by the time I wanted to eat, ALL the prawns were finished by the ministers and the family. Mum cooked Ayam Masak Merah!! In english, errr... Chicken cooked red? Haha. Plus YELLOW RICE!! Food were all gone by the time we left. Haha. Poor baby, he was feeling sick and cudn't eat much. :( I ate for him! hahah!!

Next day. Breakfast at the restaurant. FILLING GILER.
Then off to ONE BORNEO. For, SHOPPING! DUH! I was only interested in the animals we met there. Haha. There's this one shop where it's like a mini reptile zoo there. Took a picture with a white snake! But I can't seem to rmb where I put that pic. But nvrtheless, the memory is engraved. haha! Then there was a DOG SHOW! I was sooo close to the doggies.. I sooo wanted to touch them because the fur were dry and there was no signs of saliva on them except the mouth area la. But mum and Mr Fiance didn't allow me. Hmph! Haha. It's a muslim country so if I were to touch I will be sooo dead. Then, we went to some adventure park to ride the bugee thingy on the beach but all under maintenance. WTH right. So we went fishing after that. Baby caught a fish! Haha! I was almost screaming when I wanted to take close pics of the fish. It was jumping aroound! What if it hurt me. (LOL) hehe.

Was supposed to go to the mini zoo but didn't go. NVM! Next tym! :D

Went back to the suite to freshen up and then play table tennis which they've been arranging for us since they day before. Baby and me were getting better. Mum still is the best though. She used to play for her secondary school but ALWAYS lose to this chinese school of which I'm not sure of. And she said that they always play for fun when it comes to that competitor because she knew she will definitely lose and the competitor actually plays and laughs along with her and still win lah. Like, LOL!!!!
Anyways, after that, SWIMMING!! Hahah! Told the waiter to get the food to the bar beside the pool while we swam. Mum had a really good exercise! If we were to stay longer, mum would have soooo healthy and stronger. Me and Iqbal too lah. I think both our stomachs will be smaller, Hahah!

Ate dinner at the bar. Played billard pool with Abg Dhafi(Datin's son). Mum relaxed reading the papers by the pool side. And as for me, I just SYiok-SendirRI going all over the place and making friends with the bar tender. Haha. Pictures all over!!
Last day.
Packed and went off to the airport and bid Goodbye. :( Was sooooooooooo sad to leave. That's it. I'm migrating there :) LOL

3) I've moved to YISHUN.
Due to some conflicts and spreading of ridiculous stories by someone. MUM got soooo fed up and pissed off that we just moved in to a house that was available.
All I want to say, I finally feel like I have a place called HOME. I love it. Mum too.

ALL PICTURES ARE UPLOADED IN MULTIPLY.
(I needed a place to upload all of them for you guys to see and blogger is very troublesome. Haha)

rufie06.multiply.com
[still under constructions :D U may wait till it's done. Hahe]

Wakakakakakaka. I don't know how to get rid of these 'underlines'. This post has been autosaved for about 3 days already. LOL

Meant To BEE

2009-02-11T07:31:00.000-08:00

There's a reason for the title of this post :D
U'll know on valentine's day. Hehe.

Ok, where do I start?

It's been a really hectic week so far.
And, let me explain for the millionth time(so bedek, less than that lah but ALOT), the engagement is not a grand one.

Just because it's held at a chalet, DOESN'T MEAN IT'S GRAND.

1st reason: Mum don't want to use the house because we don't want some people to go around and say completely crappy stuffs about me and Iqbal's engagement. (Only some people understands this point.)

2nd reason: We don't actually have a place we call HOME. House, Yes. Home, No. We still feel ............... (Again, only some people will understand)

3rd reason: Mum wants things to be different from the rest so far. Just a little bit unique.

4th reason: Mum wants to shout to the whole world about the love me and Iqbal have for each other. (There'll be something that will prove this point on the engagement day and AT the engagement place)

5th reason: Just another family + friends gathering where all are able to enjoy, relax and just have fun for the day. (and I know it's on V-day; so if u have other plans, I really don't mind, really)

So, please understand that it's not grand. If it's grand, I will make some dinner arrangement and some country club or hotel and send out invites via cards and people are to come in formal.

And, come with a sincere heart. If there's even just 1% of your heart REALLY DON'T WANT TO GO because you just hate the fact that me and him are getting engaged OR because you'd rather be at some other place OR you just have a problem with the engagement day or for any other reason, please do not hesitate to make ur mind to not attend.

Oh, ___(to be unknown for reputation) had a miscommunication

and my gown will be ready only on Friday. THIS FRIDAY.

Yes, ONE DAY BEFORE THE BIG DAY. ONE DAY.

It should have been ready today but something

happened because of one arrogant minah.

If anything bad happens to the dress, I'm suing. Haha.

Nvm lah. Things happen for a reason anyway.

Just, give me back my money OR discount lah, hehe...

Hmmmm.... Been going in and out of Johor to get lots of stuffs. Everything was within and lesser than budget

because SOMEONE has a lot of lobang there. hehe.

Discounts EVERYWHERE. And some stuffs, got it for free. Hahah.

The guy didn't want to take any money even

when we forced him just because

SOMEONE is a dear friend of his.

But, thanks. Appreciated much much much!

For a friend,
YOU DO NOT KNOW HOW IT FEELS LIKE TO REALLY NOT HAVE A FATHER AT ALL. HOW COULD YOU SAY THAT HAVING A FATHER FEELS LIKE NOT HAVING A FATHER. FOR GOODNESS SAKE, YOU DID A TERRIBLE HUGE MISTAKE AND STILL YOUR FATHER ACCEPTED HER AND JUST TRIES TO DO HIS BEST TO SETTLE THE PROBLEM. JUST, GROW UP.
I have a father, but I don't even know what a father's love is. I got it from a someone, but now I don't feel it at all. And now, another Godfather comes in and pours all his love for me. But it doesn't feel right because I feel like I'm stealing him away from YOU. You don't know how he feels. He is your father, YOUR FATHER.
My father did so many mistakes and never did redeem himself. But what did I do? I still respect him. I still love him. I still have faith in him even though no one else has. I still have faith that he's coming for the big day. Even though that faith is only just a little bit.
Ok, stop. If not, another session of Silent Cry Alone with Time on the Bed at Night. Haha.

Such a weak soul. Yet, the Should-Know people don't see it. LOL.

Anyhoos, just want to reconfirm the address of the place.

Costa Sands Resort (Pasir Ris) - Not the one at the downtown east, further in abit.
Blk S1 for my side and Blk U2 for Iqbal's side. Just the opposite anyway. Ok?

People make mistakes. All the time.

We either learn the easy way or the hard way.

Ultimately, good things will happen.

Just accept and let go of the past.

Serenity

2009-02-07T08:13:00.000-08:00

Our minds are as different as our faces: we are all traveling to one destination; --happiness; but MANY are going the different road.

True isn't it?

Look at where I'm heading and I'm very much happy with it.

But as per normal, I can't have my happiness UNTIL I go through obstacles.

I know many encounter this right?

And if u don't, I guess u are God damn lucky. Haha. Treasure it.

You know, whatever that happens, or which ever road I've taken;

it doesn't matter if u're gonna get a good life or not.

But for this road I've taken, I know Allah will guide me through it.

Because things happen for good reasons.

Don't try to separate me from him.

God, please help me, I've loved him just too much.

People, please, just let us be together always.

In sadness or happiness.

We'll make it through, one way or another.

Because we know He's always guiding us.

Don't tell me that fights, arguments or disagreements don't occur in many relationships.

Because at the end of the day, it's still based on Tender, Loving and Care.

That's what I have in mine with Mr Beloved and Mdm Precious.

Isn't this what you want?

At least, this is what I need; extremely.

And this is what want; definitely.

Quoted:

To be happy, we must not be too concerned about others - Albert Camus

Happiness depends upon ourselves - Aristotle

I guess ultimately, all I want to say is that;

if you think that having something or someone is your greatest happiness,

then by all means, go for it.

Don't let others distract you or affect you in any way.

It's YOUR happiness now.

Time Bomb

2009-02-04T08:36:00.001-08:00

SOMEBODY has been telling people not to come for engagement.

Why are you stooping so low?

OOOOPSS!! If you think that's gonna break me down,
you can jolly well

TRY TO

Just because I ALWAYS keep quiet when people treat me like SHIT, that doesn't mean I will forgive and forget. This time, I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU NOR FORGET WHATEVER YOU HAVE DONE.

NO ONE HAS SEEN THIS BLOODY TEMPER OF MINE FOR A LONG LONG TIME.

You might see it on the day I get the signal from God.

Oh, and if you think I'm gonna be ruined, I am so sorry to disappoint you but I have MORE people I love so much and they're helping me to get to what I want.

MORE THAN EVER,

My MUM.

My BOYFRIEND.

BRO & SIS

My MUM'S SIDE OF FAMILY.

CIK DIN & FAMILY.

AND NOTABLY,

MY FRIENDS!

Even if just those people u've swayed to not come, HAHAH!! I don't need them lah. I have more who will be there for me till the end.

QUANTITY is NOT A BIG DEAL.

DO NOT PISS ME OFF!

Amusement

2009-01-30T19:58:00.000-08:00

Before NURUL SYUHADAH says that the blog needs some updates, RUFIE already wanted to update. Hahah.

I want to say that tuhan maha adil. God is always fair. With all the challenges He's brought upon me, He squeezed in some laughter, happiness and a stronger bond.

My baby was admitted to Tan Tock Seng last Thursday for suspect of appendix which was what the A&E doctor was soooooo positive about. The doc in the ward suspected either appendix, cancer or kidney failure.

Few words - STRESS, FEAR, DEPRESSION!

The next morning, baby didn't have any pain. So doc thought confirm not appendix and then said it's just INFLAMMATION. But before all that.....

Baby was allowed to go downstairs to eat. Mum, bro and myself finished eating in like half an hour but baby took only like 3mins? Hahah. And I took the chance to scold him. "Your inflammation is caused by this lah. Makan lah cepat2(Eat fast). Nanti makin sakit(Gets more painful)." Then baby just kept quiet and say "Ok,Ok.. I'll TRY to start eating slowly..."

Hahah. What I said is true anyways. So people who eats fast, please take your time to eat slowly or you're gonna end up in the hospital.

Anyhoos, after eating, we went for DESSERT at Delifrance. I didn't eat much lah. Need to diet! Hahah! Especially engagement day is coming!! :D LOL!! Shared cheesecake + a scoop of ice cream on the side with baby. Mum and bro had two slices of cake. Bro enjoy lah.

AFTER THE EATING WAS ALL DONE, went to this performance upfront. It was the fire guy. Hahah. I don't know his name. But his movie has come out called 'My Magic'. I'm getting it. Heard it's a good movie.

Anyways, during the performance, fire guy was asking for a volunteer. I was like hoping he'd choose baby when he was looking towards our direction. AND HE DID! HE CHOSE BABY! haha. Baby thought he didn't have any choice and just went ahead. hahahhhahah!

Fire guy held two dark blue cloth and a yellow one. He tied the blue ones together and put it into baby's pocket. Then he took the yellow one into a bag and gave baby a fan. Baby was instructed to fan the bag and say out "TTSH" which stands for the hospital's name.

Then baby got scolded because he broke the fan like a lot of times and fire guy blamed baby for all his failures of trying to disappear the yellow cloth.

Same thing happened with the wand.

THEN! Fire guy asked if baby has ever seen banana magic. Baby replied, "NO".

Then he asked do you know what's the colour of a banana. "Yeah"

Do you know the colour of MY banana? "Errr. Should be yellow?"

Hahhahah!! So cute and so happy to see baby smiling and laughing.

Mum was laughing her tears out behind me. Hahahs. Bro mised the action because he had to visit the toilet for loads of chocolate chunks. HAHHHAHH!!

Just look at his smile. Makes me smile all the time.
+B!! Cute outfit+ Hahha!+

And I'm sorry I left your poster back at the ward :(

But at least I have pictures! :D

Hehehh...

Again, I'd like to say thank you for all the supports and advices given by the buddies.
God knows how much I love, appreciate and thankful of you guys.

Smile ALWAYS

2009-01-25T09:28:00.000-08:00

What happens when u're down and needs to get ur mind off sorrow?

This.

Someone has learnt a very important lesson about seriousshit hardship.

To smile, till u're dead.

(idiotic smile. haha. so fake.)

But, thanks to two people.

1st: Thank you so much for listening out. I appreciate it. I really do. Just 'thank you' won't repay your doings for me. U shall be blessed wherever you go. Never will I forget you, Syu.

2nd: U're always there for me. Thank u for understanding. I love you so much. Stay by my side forever and always. Take my hand and never let go.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. (and that's what you do...)

It is wrong to think that love comes from long companionship and persevering courtship. Love is the offspring of spiritual affinity and unless that affinity is created in a moment, it will not be created for years or even generations.

Challenges

2009-01-23T21:59:00.000-08:00

God hasn't given me a break from challenges of life. I guess it's to make me stronger :D
Won't say much because I won't hold on to the past or I won't be happy.

I LOVE MY LIFE. I LOVE GOING THROUGH HARDSHIPS WITH A SMILE NOW.
I ACCEPT THESE CHALLENGES. AND I KNOW YOU'VE THROWN ME ALL THESE BECAUSE YOU KNOW I'M STRONG ENOUGH TO PULL THROUGH :D
YES I AM.

Anyways, with all hardships coming in, it feels great to get hugs. Thanks for the hugs from everyone. Advices from friends. Just, EVERYTHING. I appreciate all human beings and animals in my life. Hahha! Ok, crapping out.

Dedications. According to Yandao.com list.

Wei Jie: I don't know you that well. But it was funny hearing ur laughter during one presentation u made. Because we've never heard u laugh before so don't take it to heart. :D

Xin Juan: U're very quiet. But u really do a great job in doing research and such. Nice working with you. :D Dun tire yourself too much.

Jurthika: U have been a really nice friend. Crappy and fun. Never seen you holding on to a negative situation. Stay this way. Don't change. Why not? Haha. Good luck with DCRSM. See you in the same school!

Kamal: It was a bit tough being freinds with u in the first place because it was hard speaking to u. LOL. But it was nice knowing u. Be happy and try to put on some weight can? Hahas.

Julie: I find it's nice to talk with you about past relationships. Fun. Tough working with you. But when it comes to talking about outside class's or rather personal stuffs with u, I'm A-Okay.

Alex: I find you weird. Very tough to talk with you but you can be really funny at times. Haha. Nice to see you in formal (WITHOUT JACKET) on last day of school.

Nate: OMG. I so can't forget the first day of school about you.
+copied from LJ post+
Nate-Do you think that by learning all this will benefit us?
Me-Errr... Yes? (DUH!)hahah!
Nate-How do you fell about it?(whole class burst into laughters already)
Me-Well.... (all the bull shit come out)
Nate-That's how I feel too.
NATE!! It was SCIENCE! LOL. For you, don't change. All the best in everything you do. Stay crappy. LOL

Yoyo: It's just so nice to get hugs from you. Helps alot even though they're just hugs. Yoda!!

Afiq: I don't know where to start. U've been like a big brother to me. Ur care and concern for everyone is amazing. I don't see many guys like you. I can just confide with you about almost anything. And I still can't believe your sis and me were schoolmates. Haha. Keep in touch. And please, try to forget "Bangkil" :D

Nat: I still don't know much about you and then suddenly I found out u had a bf for 2.5 years++ alr?? Haha. Silent killer. It was nice working with you.

Eunice: Thanks for the concerns on me. I appreciate that alot. Keep on reading Edward Cullens! Haha. Be happy always.

Irah: U've guided me so much. U show the brighter path everytime when I feel I can't move out of darkness. Irah stay crappy and funny. Tapi jgn marah2 facis sgt. Hahha. "CooOOl kape??" LOL!! Jgn lupa kan saya ya kerna saya tidak akan lupa kn awak! My big sister :D +hugs2!+

Fiqa: I've never said this but u've helped me alot in reflecting on life. Whatever that happens, u are strong Fiqa. U've always been. We know how our big sisters can be and you know what I mean when I complain. Haha. Makcik Giler2.. haha.. Never fail to make people laugh. Dun let the down-side of life bring you down okie? We're always here for u.

Syu: NURUL SYUHADAH. The first crappy friend I found on the first night of the first day of school. No hot guys in our class = No motivation. Hahah! Rmb?? What can I say? You've been such a great friend. I mean it. Always there no matter what. Do I need to give more explanations? Makcik Bedah! Stay this way Syu, but grow up a bit lah! hahahs! :D +kidding+

Zhi Wei: Haha. Errr? When we were in the same team, even when u dun come to sch, it doesnt make any difference! ahhah!! Don't play games anymore lah! Hahah!

Sandra: U are a really cool girl. Don't knwo why someone said u're "fierce girl". LOL. We were in the same team at first and no negative impression of u. Till now. Stay cool always! :)

Shruti: U say I'm always smiling randomly to everyone. U know what, I get scared when it comes to smiling at you. Haha. Sometimes u just give stares! But u're a really good fren! Thanks for listening out to me when I was afraid to speak to anyone.. Pretty Shruti! :D

Phyo: I remember getting scoldings from you on the first day of school. Haha. Gonna miss u alot. Hope happiness revovles around u wherever u are...

HuiFang: The most irritating person I've ever met. Haha! But fun though. It was fun listening to your craps. Hahha. Good luck with everything u do!

Stella: "Who is Tan Si Hui?" Haha! Our secret yeah? Crappiness.

Yuki: YUKI!! Always made me feel like a baby. Hahah. Feels nice! :D Gonna miss u big sis. Haha. And u actually called me baby on the last day of school.. Haha..

SJ: Even though I don't know u that well and don't talk to u that much, u still made an impact on crocs. Haha. Good luck with everything!

Derek: I still remember Nate saying, "I like bastard guys" to you when u were sitting beside me. Haha. Always crapping out. Cheena angmoh.

Zineng: I'm so sorry for asking who the hell are u after 13 weeks of being classmates. Haha. U're a nice friend. Try to wear more formal clothes. Haha. U look good in them.

Okay, all i want to say that the 16 weeks being with u guys was a pleasure. It was fun and full of laughter. Will miss all of you especially the buddies. Meet up soon.

Old and good friends share a piece
of passion, pain, and pleasure
that no one else, no family can
begin to know or treasure.

It's as if a secret room
held their private store,
and every time they met, they could
go through some special door.

It doesn't matter if they see
each other every day,
or years and years go by before
they come and go away.

The moment that they meet it all
is there-the memories of
fierce loyalty and times of need
and gratitude and love.

Baby, I'm missing you... Work hard for our future k? Hehe. Make us rich! LOL! So not me...
I'm happy just as long I'm with the people I love.
Munchkin has been changing. I love it! Be a more petient person like me k?
It don't matter if people hurt us but we shall never hurt them in any way. I Love You.
For everything u've done. Thank u so much.
Now I confirm who I want my lifetime partner to be. YOU. DUH! Haha.

4TEEN FEBRUARY!!!
Big Day! :D

I know there's gonna be a lot more challenges, dugaan coming our way.
We'll get through it together. Just be there for me and I'll be there for you.
We'll have friends and family too.
We'll make it.

Hellooooo....

2009-01-18T22:47:00.000-08:00

Just moved from LiveJournal. Haha.

Hello World! :D

Anyhoos, yeah. Obviously I decided to move to blogspot.

Credits to Nina for doing most of the work for the layout of this blog.

Hehe.

Oh well, blogging in Gleneagles Hospital. Mum got admitted for gall's stone in bladder.

She's asleep by my side right now. I'm hoping she won't get awaken by the pain so much.

Won't be sleeping and so thankful lappy is here. Can play games and take care of mum! Hehe...

I guess the Big Guy Upstairs is really putting my patience to a higher level test.

So many things has been happening. Depressing. Happy then disappointing.

Hahas. But I can still smile for now though. With awesome people by my side.

My mum, my prince charming, Makcik Kampung Deli, my buddies and Allah.

Thank you so much for being there for me even when I may, at times, don't deserve to have you all in my complicated, yet simple life.

But as for someone who has made me really pissed today, I still love you no matter what.

Even when you treat me like shit, like as if I don't deserve a role in this life, I will never ever confront you.

Because everyone in the world deserves respect and most importantly, the love and concern they need.

I am sorry for being kinda mean by rolling my eyes at you and such. But that's the extreme I will only do.

Nobody is perfect and neither are you.

Believe it or not this statement is true.

I am who I am your approval is not needed.

I love me, I guess I'm conceited.

I would never change, especially for a person like you,

if I had a chance to change live with someone

it most definitely won't be you.

Like it or not I live my life the way I can

I'm going to try the best I can to prove you wrong

Even if it may take very long

All I have to do is take your blows, your insults, whatever you dish out and

be strong...

ICE ICE MAMA! Hahah!

Us lahh... Heheh.. :D

Which reminds me,

Deras hati ku berdetar Di langit aku terlihat kamu Terang malam teman kita Dengan angin meniup sayu..oh.. Ku petir gitar akustik ini Dengan harapan dia mendengar Melodi indah yang ku cipta Hanya untuk luahkan rinduku padanya Dan aku terus menyanyikan lagu ini untukmu Walau berjuta mendengar Lagu ini hanyalah untuk mu Arah hidup kita Tergapai bintang di angkasa Berkelip melukis cinta Terciptalah lagu kita.. Melodi indah yang ku cipta Hanya untuk luahkan rinduku padanya? Dan aku terus menyanyikan lagu ini untukmu Walau berjuta mendengar Lagu ini hanyalah untuk mu Arah hidup kita Tergapai bintang di angkasa Berkelip melukis cinta Terciptalah lagu kita.. Terciptalah lagu..kita..

Haha. :D