Inner Engineering

//Thursday, August 20, 2009 3:49 AM

SIGHS!

So, what's up?

Hmmm.. Let me start with no matter what happens or happened, I'm still happy with this life.

Breaking news(REALLY HEARTBREAKING NEWS):

Mr Fiance is going to Dubai for TWO WHOLE YEARS for his new job as a restaurant manager.

He's going to Jakarta ard mid or end of next month for training.

He's taking this job because of the salary.

AND he's leaving me because of the salary.

Bloody SC.

You guys give him so much work to do (or rather a Manager's job) and pay him for a Supervisor only?

Now he's leaving. Serve you right.

Now he's leaving me, serve me right?

Cos I didn't and won't stop him?

I was crying so loud in my heart when he told me he got the job.

I shouldn't have accompanied him to the interview.

I shouldn't have given him the 'Good Luck' kiss on the cheeks and wished him. Gah!

Pull yourself together idiot! Things happen for good reasons.

Like, at least SOME people can't say that he's earning money the 'haram' way.

Like, at least SOME people can't say that he can't support me.

Like, at least SOME people can't say that I can find someone better than him.

Like, at least SOME people can just SHUT THE HELL UP!

For God's sake! He's supporting me and mum at least!

To make our lives better, he's going away, sacrificing the word 'US'.

I have to support him. I've got no choice.

He's doing the right thing.

Even mum cried. She was like, "Finally, my prayers have been answered. Every single day, I pray that you(Mr Fiance) canprove to people and shut them up. Finally."

And tears rolled down her cheeks.

But we know that there will be more stories that SOME people are just gonna spread.

And more stories that SOME people will just have to relate to religion.

So, whatever. May He have mercy on you for disrespecting good intentions.

Anyway.

Rufihazira, please don't cry when he leaves. ('I'll try')

I've never thought of a long-distant relationship. Hahah. And now I'm gonna go through it.

Why am I laughing? He's leaving!

No, it's good for our future. Chill. Smile. DON'T CRY IDIOT!

Hey Rufi, this is just another test from Allah. Come on.

You can go through it.

Think about it, when he comes back, the love both of you have for each other will grow stronger.

It's just two years.

And before you know it, he's back in your arms.

Can I play with time?

I'm gonna need the cliques very badly please.

Please?

He said

I will love you forever no matter what,

I will kiss your lips every chance,

I will make you laugh even when you can’t smile,

I will hold you when you cry,

I will stand by your side no matter what,

I will love you even when we age,

Nobody can take the love I have for you away,

She replies,

I will make sure this is forever,

I will return your kiss with a loving heart,

I will make you laugh when you are down,

The only tears you will have is tears of laughter,

I will stand with you through our troubles,

You will still be loved when you age,

My love will forever stay when you go away...

Hey Pakcik, I love you til the end. Always.

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