Inner Engineering

//Wednesday, February 11, 2009 7:31 AM

Meant To BEE

There's a reason for the title of this post :D
U'll know on valentine's day. Hehe.

Ok, where do I start?

It's been a really hectic week so far.
And, let me explain for the millionth time(so bedek, less than that lah but ALOT), the engagement is not a grand one.

Just because it's held at a chalet, DOESN'T MEAN IT'S GRAND.

1st reason: Mum don't want to use the house because we don't want some people to go around and say completely crappy stuffs about me and Iqbal's engagement. (Only some people understands this point.)

2nd reason: We don't actually have a place we call HOME. House, Yes. Home, No. We still feel ............... (Again, only some people will understand)

3rd reason: Mum wants things to be different from the rest so far. Just a little bit unique.

4th reason: Mum wants to shout to the whole world about the love me and Iqbal have for each other. (There'll be something that will prove this point on the engagement day and AT the engagement place)

5th reason: Just another family + friends gathering where all are able to enjoy, relax and just have fun for the day. (and I know it's on V-day; so if u have other plans, I really don't mind, really)

So, please understand that it's not grand. If it's grand, I will make some dinner arrangement and some country club or hotel and send out invites via cards and people are to come in formal.

And, come with a sincere heart. If there's even just 1% of your heart REALLY DON'T WANT TO GO because you just hate the fact that me and him are getting engaged OR because you'd rather be at some other place OR you just have a problem with the engagement day or for any other reason, please do not hesitate to make ur mind to not attend.

Oh, ___(to be unknown for reputation) had a miscommunication

and my gown will be ready only on Friday. THIS FRIDAY.

Yes, ONE DAY BEFORE THE BIG DAY. ONE DAY.

It should have been ready today but something

happened because of one arrogant minah.

If anything bad happens to the dress, I'm suing. Haha.

Nvm lah. Things happen for a reason anyway.

Just, give me back my money OR discount lah, hehe...

Hmmmm.... Been going in and out of Johor to get lots of stuffs. Everything was within and lesser than budget

because SOMEONE has a lot of lobang there. hehe.

Discounts EVERYWHERE. And some stuffs, got it for free. Hahah.

The guy didn't want to take any money even

when we forced him just because

SOMEONE is a dear friend of his.

But, thanks. Appreciated much much much!

For a friend,
YOU DO NOT KNOW HOW IT FEELS LIKE TO REALLY NOT HAVE A FATHER AT ALL. HOW COULD YOU SAY THAT HAVING A FATHER FEELS LIKE NOT HAVING A FATHER. FOR GOODNESS SAKE, YOU DID A TERRIBLE HUGE MISTAKE AND STILL YOUR FATHER ACCEPTED HER AND JUST TRIES TO DO HIS BEST TO SETTLE THE PROBLEM. JUST, GROW UP.
I have a father, but I don't even know what a father's love is. I got it from a someone, but now I don't feel it at all. And now, another Godfather comes in and pours all his love for me. But it doesn't feel right because I feel like I'm stealing him away from YOU. You don't know how he feels. He is your father, YOUR FATHER.
My father did so many mistakes and never did redeem himself. But what did I do? I still respect him. I still love him. I still have faith in him even though no one else has. I still have faith that he's coming for the big day. Even though that faith is only just a little bit.
Ok, stop. If not, another session of Silent Cry Alone with Time on the Bed at Night. Haha.

Such a weak soul. Yet, the Should-Know people don't see it. LOL.

Anyhoos, just want to reconfirm the address of the place.

Costa Sands Resort (Pasir Ris) - Not the one at the downtown east, further in abit.
Blk S1 for my side and Blk U2 for Iqbal's side. Just the opposite anyway. Ok?

People make mistakes. All the time.

We either learn the easy way or the hard way.

Ultimately, good things will happen.

Just accept and let go of the past.

Labels: acceptance, blessings, needed, unfolds